okey! so i've been to taipei and back, safe and sound. taipei's great and China Airline turned out to be not bad either, except i'll never forget the hyper bumpy flight back to japan on which i thought i'd die right there. not the airline's fault tho, nasty weather we had that day.

so i'm over with the worries but overwhelmed but that holiday mood that still clings to me, n the laziness, which i blame the weather for. look, i have every intention to be productive (coz i loathe it so much to just to stay at home n do bugger all) but i just cant drag myself to school! n i'm frustrated becoz i do want to study, or at least prepare for the umpteen projects due the end of next month. tmr'll be better? says who?

here it comes again. i hate it when anxiety kicks in. I'M WORRIED STIFF!

i n nobuki r heading for Taipei the day after tmr n i've been looking forward to it since last week but all of a heap, i dun anymore. well, i still do but worries get the best of me, u c. i'm worried it'll get too hot there i'll throw a nasty tantrum. i'm worried we may not even get there coz we r actually travelling by China Airline (i'm so glad my parents dunno this blog thing haha!). i'd never hv chosen to risk my dear life like that but nobuki chose this cheap package coz he's skint. nth i can change now, right? but i'm worried.

n then there seems to be so much work to be done. wot bugs me is ppl asking to meet n work sth out together. jeez... meeting doesnt work anything if they dont say a beep wot they think about that sodding article. i'd rather doing bugger all at home than attending these meaningless and soul-destroying meetings.

sounds so grim

hey buddies! cant believe it's been a month since i last dropped a line here. time does flies.

how hv i been? nth special except the change of weather that gives me gyp. getting bored with school. getting miffed with nobuki. nth seems to please me. oh well yeah, at least chatting with piggy on the phone does.

i gather i'm kinda stuck here. i know for sure i'll go back home after graduation but then i'm equally sure that i'll get the reversal cultural shock, n take it very badly wot with all the 4 yrs living in japan. but then do i want to stay and work in japan? negative. absolutely negative.

do i like holiday? i do, but not one too long coz i like myself doing sth productive. so lets see now, i've had enough holidays but i dread school! lets hope this trip to taipei 3 days later will perk me up a bit?

so, finally, i've watched the longed for To Die For. as expected, it's a fab movie, a quasi documentary. well, a fake one. jaoquin phoenix was of course great, n nichole kidman as well. god, were they young!

my professor talked about 'friends' yesterday. just what kinda person do u call a friend, he asked. the cheesiest n well-worn definition would be 'a friend is sby who you could share personal feelings with, to hv a heart-to-heart with etc'. a friend, to me, is also one in front of whom i can be naked, both literally n practically. a friend is sby who'd catch up with ur life, care about u without telling u so. i dun make friends easily but i know friends i've made so far are all trustworthy, adoring, adorable and supportive. being picky can be sth good, sometimes

could sby kindly tell me why one'd need a mobile when the chance of him/her hearing the ringtone is almost microscopic? i consider them selfish because, to my mind, they need the mobile only when they want to contact u.

a new school term's started and i can see lots of new faces and less familiar faces as the japanese like doing the recruit thing in a bunch--collectivism. doesnt really bother a loner like me though.

here's a line my friend David told me earlier: you'll never die a virgin coz life keeps screwing u.

isnt that a nice one?